26/9/2010

きょう、へんながんじですね。。。
なんだこれわ、わかりません。。。
いつも。。。
long time didn't write blog, lazy to write, yesterday feel sad, stress, working at evening while stealing time to study a bit.
Then, until the night was going to pesta tanglung in ums, i not really like to go for the event. But since her want to go, what can i do, as long as she is happy.
However, loneliness start to appear in my heart. There is no one i can share my feeling with. I felt so sad and depressed. What i needed is just someone can chat with me. I haven touch much of my study, i wonder how will be my mid term soon. I scared i spoil my major again. I want to shout, shout out all my anger, But i do not do so, I chose to keep quiet.
Quiet can let me think much things.
Keep telling myself should not be like that, but i also a human, human is like that, will angry, sad, moody, emo...
maybe someday i die, nobody will care about it, people will forget me soon. Reality is Earth will not stop rotate...
Life is such a mystery and strange thing...

2.9.2010

好几天没有写blog了。。。
不懂是一年因为太忙，还是懒惰了。。。
最近也没有什么特别的心情吧。。。
只是人生中难免不了的一些小插曲，这次我学到了不要去跟那些无谓的人计较，因为这对我们也没有好处。反正有不是我。自己过得好就好咯。。。
最近她又是对我忽冷忽热，又时又会高声呼喝我。不过奇怪的是，我心里也没有太大的失落，也许慢慢习惯就好了吧。毕竟她是为我好的。
最近考试压力也很大哟。尤其是因为上次讲师给我不及格，这次又遇到他们的科，心中好像有阴影似的，好担心。最后几分钟也还在挣扎。。。
最后也真的是不怎么会做。。。
无论如何，反正也过去了。就不要想咯。。。
等待假期吧。。。